As a Shamanic Healer I believe energy is everything. It flows through us and connects us to the world around us. When we build a healthier relationship with our energy, we can create a thriving environment for ourselves and others.
Sure, you’ve identified the factors that contribute to your energy drain.
You’ve tried making changes to improve your vitality and overall well-being, but it’s been hard to implement and maintain the changes.
Somehow, you keep falling back into old habits or patterns and don’t know why you can ‘t stop. You see a lot of your issues originate from your past, and you wonder why you can’t move past them.
Whether you’re a healer or someone on a personal journey, there are ways to cultivate a thriving existence without the constant struggle. Let’s explore strategies that can help you feel more energized and aligned.
My first painful moment was when I got rejected and humiliated just for being myself by people I thought were my friends. I began to suffer from social anxiety and self-esteem issues. I struggled to understand why I kept attracting mean people and couldn’t comprehend why they kept rejecting and betraying me. I started to believe I was broken, unlovable, and better off on my own.
For a long time, I didn’t acknowledge that my past experiences defined or affected me. I believed I had moved on from those painful events, only to realize much later that they still influenced and lived in me.
I unconsciously interacted with the world through fear, needing to protect myself from getting hurt again, but this led to a half-hearted life. I often felt unworthy and envious of others, struggled to trust and be myself, and was terrified of failure. So, I dimmed my light, lived in my head to escape, and hid my true feelings and unresolved emotions. I used my smile as a mask.
By my mid-20s, I knew something was wrong! I tried to change, but I would retreat five steps back every time I stepped forward. But I didn’t realize I was living on autopilot.
Amazingly, I have always had an inner compass and felt Spirit guiding me. When I look back, it was when I listened to that guidance that significant changes and things happened for me. The big moments were when I discovered yoga, Shamanism, Reiki, and Wicca.
Over my healing journey, I learned that these hurtful events that happened to me were merely a reflection of my hurt, wounded signals, and unresolved past wounds. I was simply acting out unconsciously in ways that pushed people away. But once I took responsibility and became aware of the protective and defensive motives, I could break free.
I’ve had many incredible teachers along the way. I have gained and acquired many tools that have helped me get to where I am today. But what really made the difference was that I did the work. I took action to change my patterns and beliefs and faced my fears.
I am not perfect, and it’s so liberating to finally be OK with saying this. I don’t always have it all together, and I am totally not healed. But that’s OK. What’s important to me is that I keep working on myself, working for my healed outcome. I am always excited for my next healing evolution.
If you’d love to work with someone who’s a great listener, passionate about sharing what they’ve learned and understands that we are not our wounds, then I would love to work with you.
I create a safe, compassionate and caring space for people to share, let go, cry, learn and heal so they can evolve into who they are meant to be.
If you feel we’d be a great match. I would love to work with you.
Blessed be!
Jenn Malisauskas
